When everything feels a little discolored, like looking through a mottled filter or chemical burns on an old photograph, I look for clarity.
When I feel like my heart will drown in anger and hurt, I look for love.
When my chest is tight, I think I could die in a scream if only there was enough energy left inside me to raise my voice, my true inner voice, high and loud. When that happens, I realize those things - peace, love, and even clarity - are near me, even when they feel very far away.
When I see the date on my calendar yelling out the word April, I am reminded again that my soul knows the date even when my mind has disregarded it.
And that is when I remind myself to be kind.
Breathe slowly.
Do not take on responsibilities that I do not own.
Tomorrow is another day, and after 30 more of those, it will be May.
I remember that sometimes there are flowers in the sky.
I remember that everything will be okay.
The two might not seem related, but they are both miracles.
Miracles are a beautiful thing. I wish them for my life and yours.
I pray for peace. love. clarity. flowers in the sky.
I pray that everything will be okay.
And I believe it will.
Every good and perfect gift is from above,
coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights,
who does not change like shifting shadows.
- James 1:17
I am praying for you, Tracie. Keep your eyes on His Peace and His Love and those flowers in the sky... they bloom for you. Feel them, see them, believe in them.
ReplyDeleteGirl I hear ya.. mine has mainly been dealing with the mess of this wreck and the realization that Gene will never work again. Frustration doesn't begin to cover it.. I am glad it is spring and I can get OUTSiDE and get some fresh air nad my hands in the dirt
ReplyDeleteI needed to read this this morning. Thank you. Love and hugs and flowers your way.
ReplyDeleteHugs and wishes for you peace. Time does make this easier and understand. Keep learning and reaching for peace.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful, Tracie. Wishing you a peaceful and love-filled April, if possible.
ReplyDeleteI always look to the sky.
This is so beautiful and thank you for reminding me that there are always more days ahead...xoxo
ReplyDeleteIt is my turn to say, "You are in my prayers." I know all too well the panic that April can bring. Remember that you are a hero, a survivor, and one incredible human. And you are NEVER alone. I am sending you all my love and whatever peace I can.
ReplyDeleteMay is just around the corner and it will be full of flowers.
You just keep looking for those flowers in the sky and yes, everything will be okay. Keeping you in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteSigh. Boy do I need to someone to remind me to look for the flowers in the sky.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're still looking up at the sky and seeing all the beauty, love and peace. xo