-10AM Margaret's Story

I was asked by Tracie if I would like to share my story on the sexual and physical abuse I suffered when I was a child.  All the names have been changed and if you do stop by my blog please don’t comment about this matter on there.  If you want to respond feel free to e-mail me at margaannemarie(at)yahoo(dot)com.

I don’t really remember most of my childhood because I blocked a lot of it out.  I know if I wanted to recall it all I could but I don’t think it is a good idea to try and remember it all.  When I was a child and living with my mom and dad I suffered a lot of physical and sexual abuse.  I don’t really remember the sexual abuse.  All I remember about it is that it happened, and  for many years to come I thought I was all my fault.  I remember some of the physical abuse.  One time that I remember like it was yesterday was when we were all sitting in a car.  For some reason my parents were arguing.   My dad got out of the car and my mom kept locking the doors so he could not get her.  I remember how scared I was and how I didn’t understand what was really going on.  There was another time I had to be like four years old or so and both my parents forced me to watch Chuckie even though I didn’t want to watch it.  To this day I still can’t watch those movies and I don’t like scary movies. 

I know look back it all and wonder how my parents could treat us like that.  I really wish I was younger because then I could be like my brother and remember much of the horrors I had to endure.  I really hope that someone out there will read this and step in and help children that are being abused.  Kids that are living through the hell I went through just need one person on their side to survive it and realize that it isn’t their fault.

Margaret